I guess I really only write near new years, huh? I find it harder to write on here than in my notebooks for some reason. I do like the idea of immortalizing my thoughts through this site though.
2019 was a heavy year. It was a year of change. I started my first industry internship in Jan. I graduated in May. I broke up with Dream Boy in May. I started my first full time job in August. I started another relationship in July. I applied for graduate school in November. I ended my new relationship in December. I would like to remember the exact dates for the sake of time, but what really does it matter. All I know that progress was made. All the change was likely good for me. I experienced adulthood in a short span of time. I experienced heartbreak at the same time.
I’ve been doing alot of planning for this year. If last year was the year of change, then this year is the year of growth. 2020 is the year of environmental changes. I hope to bring a greater impact to that by starting recycling initiatives within my home. I also want to build up myself and my career. I’m learning to spend more time learning; the value of education has finally dawned on me in my early 20s. I’m also taking time away from relationships. This one will be a tough one. I’m still in love with Dream Boy. Unfortunate, I know, but I really jumped the gun with the rebound. I don’t think I can see him as a friend right now so I’m going to focus on distance once again. Most importantly, 2020 will be the year I move out. I don’t care if I end up broke and poor. I will move away and find new purpose. I need the change. The breath of air. I need to break free of this cage. I want to know what is out there and who am I am. I can’t breath here anymore. I will have more news on this front in the next 3 months. Fingers crossed. Hope for the best.